After the birth of my first child Pippa, I was blindsided by postpartum depression. My maternal mental illness started with a pervasive sense of guilt and quickly morphed into anxiety, insomnia and neurotic behaviors like checking to make sure Pippa was still breathing dozens of times each night. When I started having dark intrusive thoughts of throwing my daughter, I finally asked for help.
My memoir – which is also my first book, hooray! – describes my descent into the darkness of depression, anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder; chronicles the four days I spent in a hospital’s psychiatric unit; and details my road to recovery. As part of my recovery, I worked with a cognitive behavioral psychologist to dismantle the anxiety that had been ruling my life. Along the way, I adjusted to my new life as a stay-at-home mom and conquered the shame of having a mental illness. Less than a year after being diagnosed, I realized that having postpartum depression was actually one of the best experiences of her life.
My memoir Adventures with Postpartum Depression is now available as an e-book on Amazon.